The Plan

I'm 5'4" and have to lose about 65 lbs or so. I'll be posting my weight loss progress every so often.  For me, it's not about the number on the scale. It's if my clothes fit, if I have the strength and energy to go on a 4-hour hike, if I feel comfortable enough in my skin to wear what I want without being self-conscious.  Or walk around naked in front of my man without having to hide my shameful rolls.

FOOD: There's no diet. Nothing is off-limits. It's truly a lifestyle change, really. Just working on preparing healthy meals and mindful eating. I've already stopped eating a lot of processed foods. I do the organic thing when I can, but it can get pricey. I've never been a kitcheny-type girl, but I'm trying to cook recipes that satisfy me, so I don't have to eat a huge dessert afterwards. But if I do overindulge, I won't say "Oh well, that's it, I give up." This time around, I'm just going to take it one step at a time and try again the next day.

EXERCISE: Aye there's the rub. I hate to exercise, always have, so I'm starting out with walking. I can't afford a gym membership right now, but I that's okay. I have an elliptical, a rebounder and some hand weights in the basement.  I plan to start using them in a few weeks. I also plan to buy a second-hand bicycle later on in the spring.

Being honest with myself also plays a big part. I'm keeping a food and workout journal to make sure I'm doing what it takes to lose the weight.

Ready to start

So why the title Fat Girl Won't Run?  I'm not going to run away this time from losing weight. This isn't my first time promising myself that this time I'll really lose it by working out then after 2 weeks going back to the safety of my couch and eating a bag of Chester's Corn Twists.

Why did I pack on the pounds? What am I getting out of being fat?  Safety... it's my barrier, a wall to keep out others. 20 years worth of eating my emotions.
I overeat because I'm lonely.
I overeat because I'm bored.
I make bad food choices knowingly.

I carry a lot of weight around my belly and hate of sight of those rolls. I hate the way my thighs rub together so much so I get rashes and nasty ingrown hairs.

Why lose it now?  I think I've finally figured out most of my emotional past/shit. I feel healthy and awesome on the inside and it should be reflected on the outside. Also I've finally met a great guy who sees through my crap and loves me unconditionally.

Starting weight: 210lbs        (Goal: 150ish)

Current Measurements:
Chest : 40"
Waist:  42"
Ass:  49"
Upper Thigh: 29"
Bicep: 16.5"
Calf: 17"
Current Clothing Size: 16/18; XL/1X     (Goal: 8/10; Medium)