With my father's death and the New Year, during this past month I've been looking back at what I've accomplished. And what I haven't. Honestly. Without rose-coloured glasses. I'm looking long and hard in the mirror and I don't like what I see.
Even though I have lost 25lbs, I still see an overweight and deeply sad person, whose true self is lost in rolls of fat. Is this the real me? No, it is not!
There's no magic secret, no thigh master or protein shake that will get this jiggling flab off of me. I know what needs to be done. What will get me to my goal is dedication, hard work, daily exercise, and eating clean and portion control.
I hadn't been pushing myself to get some exercise and when I did exercise, it was without passion or intensity. I have to be present and on point 100% not just part-way. Eating well and watching my portions sometimes is not good enough. Good enough... I didn't feel like I was worth it some of the time. Thing is, I know when I lose the weight, I will feel so much better about how I look and feel.
Another catalyst for change is the holiday supper I was invited to. The hostess, an older family friend, presented a "healthy" meal of ham and potato casserole, salad with loads of caesar dressing, and cookies and ice cream for dessert. Out of politeness, I did eat some of the supper, had a cookie, but by the time I got home, I felt so sick and bloated. I usually don't eat any of those foods except the salad minus the dressing. I woke the next day with a headache, extreme thirst and puffiness, especially my face. Fat and sodium overload!
Even though I have lost 25lbs, I still see an overweight and deeply sad person, whose true self is lost in rolls of fat. Is this the real me? No, it is not!
There's no magic secret, no thigh master or protein shake that will get this jiggling flab off of me. I know what needs to be done. What will get me to my goal is dedication, hard work, daily exercise, and eating clean and portion control.
I hadn't been pushing myself to get some exercise and when I did exercise, it was without passion or intensity. I have to be present and on point 100% not just part-way. Eating well and watching my portions sometimes is not good enough. Good enough... I didn't feel like I was worth it some of the time. Thing is, I know when I lose the weight, I will feel so much better about how I look and feel.
Another catalyst for change is the holiday supper I was invited to. The hostess, an older family friend, presented a "healthy" meal of ham and potato casserole, salad with loads of caesar dressing, and cookies and ice cream for dessert. Out of politeness, I did eat some of the supper, had a cookie, but by the time I got home, I felt so sick and bloated. I usually don't eat any of those foods except the salad minus the dressing. I woke the next day with a headache, extreme thirst and puffiness, especially my face. Fat and sodium overload!
What a reminder of how I used to eat. Don't want to go back to eating like that. Staying fat and unhappy for years and years and shortening the quality of my life is not what I want. Who would?
Steps I've taken in the past month:
Steps I've taken in the past month:
Daily exercise, at least 30 minutes, one or more the following:
- Full body workouts with weights and stability ball
- Indoor cardio on the elliptical
- Mini-tramping
- Power walking in my hilly 'hood
- Yoga
- Shoveling snow, it's deep winter so I can be out there for an hour or more, followed by yoga
Food:
- Paring down portions
- Trying a variety of veggies
- Eating more veggies than fruit
- Limiting sodium
- Limiting my intake of bread
- Limiting sugar, eg. no more sugar in tea, still working on the morning coffee.
- Daily calcium supplement
Oh I need to bookmark this post. I haven't progressed to the working out yet but I know when I do it will be the just plodding though. Maybe if I mentally catalog this post it will help with that umph I will need.
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