The weather here has been very up and down. Sunny and warm, perfect days really, then the past few days cold and now rainy and autumn-like. Actually I had some home-made chicken soup tonight for supper. I always keep some kind of soup in the freezer in case I get sick. This time the soup was a healthy comfort; it took the chill off almost everything.
I've been going through something difficult, so I'm feeling a lot of sadness, but sad without negativity. There are things I can't control. I have them go and have faith that things will work out for the best in the end. Finding true joy again will take time and dwelling and moping in negativity is not an option. I'm focusing on changing the things I can. Like taking care of my health and fitness.
The doctor gave me the go-ahead to resume an active lifestyle, so the plan is to slowly get back to brisk walks, get back on the elliptical, do some weight training and yoga/pilates. My body is at about the same weight as it has been for the past while, 181.7 lbs, but I feel so much less fit. My arms have quickly turned flabby and my body is so stiff. It's actually very scary how quickly this happened.
I'm glad I'm more and more able to view food just as fuel not as something to fill a void. Will ice cream make my current situation any better? Nope, it'd just be added extra calories I don't need. Would chips or pizza make me happy? Nope, they'd just make me feel dehydrated and bloated because of all that salt.
We all face stresses and set-backs. It's the way you deal with them determines whether you've made progress or not. I'm proud I have made progress.
GREAT job! Good for you, Nikki! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Gwen!
DeleteThinking of you Nikki. You're right, pizza and ice cream won't make you feel better. You should be so proud of yourself. xox
ReplyDeleteThanks for the kind words Shannon :)
DeleteI'm so sorry that you're going through a hard time. But it's wonderful that you're learning how to cope without food. That's definitely something I can relate to, and reminding myself that the food won't actually make me feel happy has helped to not eat things I'll regret later.
ReplyDeleteThanks Leah. It's been a long learning process and has not been an easy overnight change... but it can be done.
DeleteNikki - great post. Understanding your emotions and experiencing them without turning to food for solace is a big thing. Your next to last paragraph spoke to me.
ReplyDeleteI hope you'll find resolution soon.
Thanks for the compliment LuckyMama. More and more I'm realising the real impact of the food choices I make on my body. That helps me make the right decision!
DeleteI hope so too, I really do :)
Your title in a friend's blog feed caught my eye since it sums up my mood so perfectly (Summer Sadness)... It's been a rough one for me too. & it doesn't help when I get up FEELING better about my choices, hop on the scale only to see I'm UP another 2 lbs??!!?? What gives??
ReplyDeleteWelcome :)
DeleteYou just have to keep making the best choice you can. It doesn't have to be the perfect choice.
Hope things get better for you too.
Awesome job getting back to where you need to be and recognizing the struggle. I've been there the past 4 months myself. But things are looking up for me and you too. Hugs to you:-)
ReplyDeleteThanks Leigh! Only blue and sunny skies on the horizon :) Hugs right back at you!
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