Where's that "Whoosh"?

Been working my plan, and the results are slow coming in. I expected a great "whoosh" of weight falling off, but nope, that's not what's happening right now. I'll give it a couple more weeks then re-evaluate. I think this coming week, as I'm back to work in the workplace and not working at home, I'll see more changes as I get more movement throughout the day. Working from home has been super-challenging, even with using a timer to make sure I get up from my desk!

I'm feeling some stress before heading back into the office this week: lots of new rules are now in place. How to correctly enter and exit the building, how to circulate through the building, washrooms, and an implicit ban on socializing. In the "before times", I'd stop at people's desk to chit-chat, ask how things are going, but now we've been told to "stay at your desk as much as possible". Use of the kitchens are being discouraged--even though there just a couple of microwaves, a big fridge, and a kettle. At least it's summertime, so a packed lunch can be my norm--salad or sandwich and veggies. No more stinky items like fish nor devilled eggs that I used to make for my lunch, ha ha! 

The commute is another stressor--the buses have been reduced and schedules changes. No speedy buses to get me in and out of the downtown, but lots of "milk runs". Sigh. Thought about riding my bicycle into work, but there are no showers. I get into a muck sweat no matter the time of year when riding an hour or so. My friend told me her work has closed off their showers and change rooms as budgets are tight, and those facilities would require lots of deep cleaning. 

Anyway, we'll see how goes. 

Weight is 194.3 lbs. 

For inspiration, I'm still reading through the health, fitness, and weight-loss books I've got in my collection. Jillian Michaels is what's on my nightstand at the moment. My e-Reader has some fiction and biographies, so I'm enjoying Queenie by Candice Carty Williams and The Chiffon Trenches by André Leon Talley.

Music-wise I've been listening to a lot of fun tunes. Weird Al, and just stuff that makes me laugh and groove with big bass-lines while I move. 

Drips and drabs

Scale is about the same this week, but I've lost an inch off my waist. Clothes are slightly looser. Things are headed in the right direction, so I'll keep on doing what I'm doing. I was looking for more weight off but I'm sure it'll happen next week.

Home-wise things are status quo: Still working from home. Trying to keep the clutter bugs at bay. The clutter bug is my own self who gets lazy and doesn't put things away!

I've been playing cards online with some friends--keeps the boredom of not being able to get-together at bay for the moment.

Food-wise: I've been pretty good at getting lots of veggies in, some fruit, protein has varied from fatty to lean. A bit too heavy on the processed carbs--pasta that is. Indulgences: One chocolate bar. 10 chips. That kept me from pigging out, whole hog style. 

 
Exercise-wise: Three one-hour workouts (cardio then body weight exercises), but could do more. Everyday is stretching of some kind. Walked for about an hour in the heat--was a bit too much. Went swimming in my friend's pool--lots of fun.

Health-wise: I've got some eczema that has cropped up--not sure if it's a food sensitivity or other allergy cropping up. Will see if it dies down, and if it doesn't will cut all all dairy, even my lactose-free milk for my morning coffee.

Make the Connection

Years and years ago, I picked up Oprah Winfrey's and Bob Greene's book Make The Connection: Ten Steps To A Better Body And A Better Life and the accompanying A Journal of Daily Renewal.  I was sure I was going to lose the weight for good that time. And the time after that, and the time after that... Reading through my old entries in the journal really hit hard. I had logged my weight and measurements in there on the first day of restarts to only fail to follow through. It's been a cycle of ups and downs for so long. Lots of good intentions at the beginning, "Will make daily exercise part of my lifestyle!". Then quickly come excuses. Then, "There's always tomorrow" And then, "Ugh, why did I do this to myself, again".

Going back and looking at those entries, and the entries here on my blog, remembering those feelings and actions, and lack of follow-through on plans is probably the best thing I've done to keep myself on track this past week. 

At this point, I'm tired of this weight, and my body is too. 

One non-scale victory this week, at the last minute, my man asked if I wanted to go for a drive out to the country and see the Neowise comet. It was already 7 p.m., I had just finished working late on a report, and I hadn't yet exercised. I chose to exercise. I could have said, I'll do better tomorrow, but I've that to myself way too many times already. Although I missed a nice time (I've already seen a comet), I have no regrets about 30 minutes of cardio, and 30 minutes of yoga, and a wonderful shower afterwards.

Food-wise: Made a big pot of healthy chilli: some ground turkey and some beans, lots of veggies, lots of spice. No beer (my usual special ingredient). And no cheezies on the side. Ate small meals on plan.

Weight-wise: Scale is a couple of pounds down. 

After re-reading Oprah's book, some of the information is waaaaaaaaaay out of date, especially the recommendation of non-fat foods. She herself is now a member Weight Watchers and is/was a part owner. Bob Greene had his The Best Life Diet for a while, I remember seeing his sticker on a box of cereal a long time ago, but I have no idea what he is up to now.
But the nutrition aspect aside, the essentials remain. Examine your life, find out what your triggers for overeating actually are and deal with them. Get up,  focus,  do what it takes to be healthy every single day.

Just Do Right

Still working from home, and counting my blessings that I have steady employment and income. Cases of Covid are still popping up in clusters here, like from people working in manufacturing/production, those getting together with people outside their "bubble", those hanging out at bars, and larger outbreaks in old age or nursing homes. I heard a couple of friends of friends passed away from it last month--both in their 30s and 40s, both in good health. This is so sad and so scary.

My stress levels have been high lately, mainly because when I have to go out for groceries or essentials, very few people are wearing masks indoors, and coughing like nothing is wrong. That will change soon when it becomes mandatory for those inside any building to be masked up. In many places, I've heard stories of non-compliance, conflict, and violence. Why not wear a mask if it can help protect someone else? I'm doing the right thing, but some simply don't give a flying *uck about others. A friend was espousing conspiracy theories, I told him I'm making him a tin foil hat/mask combo for his birthday--he was not amused. Another Covidiot added to the growing number.

Did I mention stress levels? Yeah. Also I'm pretty worried about my family members, and their health issues. And about going back into my workplace in a month or so. Some colleagues in adjacent sections have in the past have come in to work while sick because their manager hates to juggle who works on the front lines with the public. I'm hoping that manager has wised up?

What happens when stress is up, and I fall back on old coping mechanisms? Weight is up. 197.4 lbs, making it about a 15 lb gain. Why the gain... pretty simple really:

• I've not been moving much at all.
• I've binged on crap (chips and cheezies) to eat my feelings.

And I feel so much unhealthier, with an aching back and joints, and being out of breath doing easy tasks, like bringing up a basket of laundry up two flights of stairs. I even look different! My body literally is screaming at me to stop my behaviour. Now.

Plan:

• Mind:
  +Balance/Perspective: Once a week talking with a counselor over the phone to get help with coping with stress. Thankfully my work pays for some of the sessions.
  +Inspiration/Motivation: Reading a health or fitness book from my collection (Jillian Michaels, Tosca Reno, Dr. Yoni Freedhof, etc)
• Body: Move intentionally 30 minutes per day to start back into a routine. Even if it's a Leslie Sansone Just Walk dvd!
• Food: Stick to the food plan devised my nutritionist. It's full of great options and not terribly restrictive.
• Water: Keep track of intake. It's been slipping downwards and that lack might contribute to feeling hungry when it's simple dehydration.
• Accountability:
  +Bringing out my old Oprah Winfrey Make the Connection Journal of Daily Renewal and will fill pages from Day 10 to day 92.
  (I'll post the story of pages 1 to 9 next time)
  +Posting here weekly to update 
  
  

Getting inspiration in all aspects in my life from the late great Dr. Maya Angelou's wise words. Listen to her version of The Golden Rule, "Just Do Right". ❤

Been Staying the F*** Home

My job is one where working from home is mostly possible so I'm in my 3rd week of doing just that. Some of my tasks get put aside until we get back into the workplace. So far, schools are closed here until early May or longer--assuming about the same for my workplace? We'll see.

Our federal and provincial government has been quick to enforce a lot of hard rules. I'm surprised that some parks are closed. Since it's still cold here, we still have to bundle up for a walk around the neighbourhood. It's boring, but there's not too many other options. The price of gas is lowest its been in ages, but road tripping it is out of the question. Police are deployed on some roads discouraging travel.

I am worried about my mother, who has had one hospital visit last week for heart issues. She doesn't want anyone coming to stay with her at all at her apartment, and her doctor agrees. She does have a lot of support there and a legendary freezer and pantry stockpile, so that is a relief. I'm not stress eating too much, but I find it very hard getting into a new routine.

As for food, after an initial panic around here, things have calmed down quickly and the grocery stores are back to stocking toilet paper, and most everything else. They did put limits on some items since some people got into panic stockpiling mode. All stores close on Sundays and the store hours are shrinking, so it's getting harder to avoid people and stay six feet away.

My weight hasn't changed too much since I've been cutting down on calories knowing that I'm getting a lot less steps in. 

Also, I did get a phone call from my doctor to discuss some test results related to my kidneys. Upshot is I've got to lower my protein, sodium, potassium, and phosphorous. The wait list for a nutritionist/dietician to work out a meal plan is long, and at the moment not happening. Muddling as best as I can through this one. At least we have the interwebs with some good authoritative info out there.

Thankfully my Internet Service Provider took off the data caps and everyone has unlimited data for the March and April. Hello Netflix and AcornTv!!  Not going stir crazy just yet. :) 

Stay safe everyone.

I'm Still Standing

January:  I was a plague-ridden mess! Some awful cold virus decided to set up a new home in my sinuses, and ears. It lasted a good five weeks. Five. I'd feel like crap for four days, then revive for a couple of days and get some stuff done, then crawl back under the covers with a hacking cough with mucus, and a big  box of tissues. The doctor swabbed my throat a couple of times of the course of the month to make sure it didn't turn into a bacterial infection. But I felt like I'd been hit with a ton of bricks.
Food: Appetite was less than usual. Soups. Whole wheat bread. Sometimes roast chicken and roast veggies. Lots and lots of tea.
Exercise: Huh. Nope!
Weight: Slid downwards into the 170s. This was not a good thing.

February: Since I missed so much work in January, February was catch-up month. BIG TIME STRESS!!! And with my big work project, due at the end of the month, I had missed some soft deadlines, and had tons of e-mails to send out.  Living out of a hotel for the last two weeks didn't help.
Food: Up and down. Some stress eating, then reigning it in.
Exercise: Every other morning for the first two weeks, I'd hit the eliptical. After work: only two cardio workouts--I felt as weak as a kitten! The other two weeks I was on the road working--so early meetings, and no time after work for the hotel exercise room.
Weight: Slid upwards at the end of the month.

Today: The big work project came to an end mid-week and I'm coming up for air. Routine: So glad to be back home and getting back to what works. A 30 minute workout in the morning, and making sure meals are planned and prepped in advance.

Weight: 182lbs, about the same as Christmastime. 

I'm still standing... 

Holidaze recap

Made it through the Holidaze period fairly well! I thought it'd be more challenging, but since I dropped out of a couple of  friends' pre-Christmas parties due to having a bad cold and was able to avoid some temptations. 

While at my Mother's place, using the exercise equipment every morning really helped both with stress levels, making wise food choices, and generally feeling better. Although there was a lot of chocolate flying about, not much of it ended up in my mouth. Meals were healthy: Roast turkey, roast veggies, green leafy salads. Ham. Roast beef. The tourtiere, a French-Canadian meat pie, has a nice pastry crust which is quite carby, so that was one exception to my low carb plan I decided to make! But my Mother is also trying to slim down, so fresh fruit was always on the table and she had tons of healthy options for us all.

My in-laws and out-laws get togethers were more problematic in terms of food choices, but I did my best without offending anyone. My Sister-in-law is now more health conscious, so meals at her place were very much less junk-filled than in years past. In fact, no junky bowls of chips were in evidence anywhere! A big change.

New Year's Eve was interesting! No chips in sight, but my friend (who had WLS two years ago) really fancied the evening up. For apps: Cold cuts like prosciutto and salami, cheeses, crackers, french bread grapes, walnuts. I stuck to the grapes and walnuts.  Supper: pasta shells, so cheese again. She also made chicken breasts, so I had a couple of those. Desserts were everywhere afterwards! A minefield of them. I went back and had some grapes and indulged in the alcoholic cider I brought along. My man had a blast since he is a big mouse who loves cheese!

For New Years goals, aside from getting healthier, I'm continuing on decluttering paper, and stuff around the house. It's a continual process. Stuff comes in, and I get bogged down with other things, then go on decluttering sprees. Marie Kondo inspo can only go so far! :) 

Weigh-in yesterday was 180.7 lbs, so down about five pounds since last month. 

Finding a Routine that Sticks

I've had to work longer hours at the office lately, and will continue to do so until a huge project and presentation is complete at the end of February. I'll reward myself with a nice little vacation then. Soooooo looking forward to that. My biggest challenge is keeping my stress levels down. It's imperative that I do so. Exercise definitely helps with that, but those longer hours make finding room for exercise very difficult.

I've technically been getting 10K or more steps per day. Using the stairs at work instead of the elevator, and taking walking breaks in the building.  But that, combined with clean eating has not translated into weight loss. By the time I get home, it is past 7pm and I have to prep and then eat supper. I should be in bed by 11pm, but that doesn't happen often. I get sidetracked by the interwebs. Or a bit of stress-induced insomnia creeps in.

The only thing I can think of that will fit my schedule is exercise first thing in the morning. At least I can hop on the elliptical I have here, and not have to schlep to the gym in the dead dark cold of Winter. If I can also do a quick DVD workout with weights if too. I'm really not a morning person, but I've got to change this (at least temporarily), knuckle down, and get it done!! That new routine will start Monday morning.

Eating is not 100% perfect by any means, but I've not been binge eating or eating when not hungry. Navigating the Holidaze is always full of pitfalls. Carby and chocolatey pitfalls. I've stayed away from my main trigger food at parties this time of year: namely chips and dip. I just find something to drink, like sparkling water, tea or coffee. And at work, if I get hungry, my first instinct at work is no longer to head to the vending machine for chips. Instead it makes more sense to grab a banana or carrots and hummus, which I always have handy at work. At home, I keep the cabinets and fridge stocked with only nutritious food. I know I feel awful if I eat before bed, so that doesn't happen anymore.  My portions have been too large. I know this all too well.

These next few weeks are going to be hard. This coming week at work with work parties, during and after.  Then two weeks off work, traveling to relatives, in-laws and out-laws, and New Years with friends. At least at my mother's apartment, there is an exercise room.

Interestingly my friend throwing the big NYE party this year had gastric bypass about 2 yrs ago to help control her diabetes and thyroid... but she still serves loads of junk food, or high-fat high-carb food when she hosts parties. She's under 200lbs now, but still has another 30-40 to go.  And another friend just had bypass surgery. In her case, I think that it might not work since she really loves food, especially ice cream. She even has a foodie Instagram!! I hope she can turn things around with therapy, which is required with her program. 

I've never thought seriously of getting surgery myself, since for me my weight is a completely mental issue--overeating junk especially is my default coping mechanism. Building new coping mechanisms, surgery or no surgery is essential to my recovery. Exercise is a big part of this.

I weighed in this morning at 186.1 lbs. So up a tiny bit from last month.